One of the Hardest Years of Our Lives

2018 was horrible for us in terms of trying to have a second child. The surrounding years were not great either - but 2018 was even worse. And it all culminated in the fact that our doctor forced us to pick our own embryo - minutes before the transfer. A transfer that ultimately ended in a miscarriage...

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Infertility is… incredibly complicated

It wasn’t until I became an embryologist that I learnt it is incredibly more complicated than this. From an embryologist view point, I see multiple different patient issues all at the same time and so many people do not realise all the possible facets of infertility. Here is what infertility also can be:

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Infertility is… Self-Discovery

This journey has been one of the most challenging episodes I’ve faced in my life. But it has also taught me a new version of happiness, love and braveness. Sounds ironic right? For some it is the opposite, but for me, even with an extremely hard and painful chapter in my life, it was a self discovery process I must have walked.

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Infertility is… a Thief.

You learn to put your life on hold. Put up with the clinics, appointments, expenses and failures all in hopes of a MAYBE. All in hopes of a CHANCE. A thread of HOPE that maybe one day it will all pay off and you’ll get to be a mom one day.

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Infertility Is… Life Changing

It’s knowing that you’ll never conceive in the privacy of your home, and it’s forking over tens of thousands of dollars to the doctors who can only promise you a chance. It’s the death of a dream. Some days it’s just numbness. It’s a pain that comes from a social need, a biological need - a need that can’t be filled. Infertility is loss. It’s trauma. It’s grief. But... infertility is also strength.

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Infertility is…taking birth control and prenatals at the same time.

Infertility is a world of contradictions, and this is one of the more ironic ones. They tell us to take birth control and prenatals together. I remember the first time I was asked to do this, I thought – seriously? I went off birth control, why would I possibly want to go on it again. But I know that hormonally they’re trying to gain some control over our bodies and trying to help us get pregnant. Just so ironic!

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Infertility Is…The Loss Of A Dream

You dare to dream and you plan, until one day you hear the word “infertility” and you feel the weight of the world falling down upon you. Suddenly, the dreams start to become lost in the reality of infertility. Infertility is the loss of so many dreams.

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